You Give Me the Giggles

    For some reason I thought that school girl crushes would end once I got out of school. HA. Good one, self. You will have crushes after school ends, and it's because you will start having crushes on your coworkers, or maybe even your supervisor. Instead of checking to see if he's at his locker so you can coincidentally stroll pass and call out an oh-so-casual "hey", you'll be running into him at the water cooler, or reaching for a beer at the same time at company happy hour. You will still blush when he makes eye contact with you, and you will still laugh at his stupid jokes because to you, they'll be witty and fresh. You'll chat about clients, and welcome his advice because he genuinely wants to help. You'll joke about how much your job sucks, but know in your head that he is probably the only thing that makes it worth coming to everyday. 
      You'll fall into a routine of catching the same train, and conversations will turn to subjects more stimulating than work and vacation time. You will ask about each other's weekends, and secretly wish he had texted you to meet up. You will spend half your day emailing each other little jokes, but making it look like work.You will imagine what it's like to hold him, to kiss and touch him. You will feel special when he talks about his family and shows you pictures of his nieces and nephews because you love seeing tiny little morsels of him with everyday that passes. In your head, you will go back and forth a million times about whether or not to make a move. You will kick yourself for chickening out, because this happens every time, even the times you tell yourself will be different. You will wonder if he sees you as more than a coworker/friend, or if you made it all up in your head- every smile, every compliment, every moment.

Then, you will get a new job, and the process will begin again, and if you're lucky, you will giggle and blush as if for the first time.